Start of feburary

I hate how difficult it is to get ADHD medication and how lacking it really makes my mood worse. January was a very hard month because of the lack of medication. I understand that the medication has risk for abuse but the increased control on the medication is hurtful. It makes getting the medication require more paperwork which is always hard for such a forgetful person like me.

I have not been reading as much about chemistry as I would like for lack of time but mainly because I have been depressed. Depression is such a weird thing. It is hard to get to doing what I want to do but I don’t do them so I get sad. I think this cycle has a lot to do with why depression and anxiety so often go together for me.

I have enjoyed getting this blog up and going. It allows me a creative outlet and is something I can connect with friends over. Maybe at some point I will add a little section to show other blogs of my friends. There is something nice about having a system that is not so connected to shortform content. I am looking forward to getting Sophie to post here soon. I am glad that it is February because I am looking forward to spring and its flowers. It is probably the best time of year.

I am worried about what the US is going to do to Iran. I have no love for any government and particularly not a theocracy but if it falls under US pressure I worry what the US will try to set up to replace it with. It seems like the US is building up for a war to take out the current government and it could start now any day. Trump could be riding on the high of successfully kidnapping Nicolás Maduro earlier in January.

January was quite an eventful month with the EU finding a way to not immediately fall over and give Trump everything he wanted just yet and Trump being evil in the US. The war in Ukraine seems to be getting ever higher death tolls which everyone is losing but nobody capable of stopping this bloodshed. There are more Epstein files being published and elongated muskrat remains the worst autistic representation.

For fun I have been playing Heaven will be Mine and just love gay people. Cradles Graces is just a good faction and has been capturing how I feel about the world very well right now. I mainly started playing it to just enjoy some queer media and it was recommended by a good friend but I really liked the deeper themes and what it did with its art style. I am so glad it recommended me hwbm. Sophie has mentioned that she thinks Visual novels are one of the last types of video games that have a lot of room for artistic creativity and I can’t agree more. I love how much room there is in the media for abstract art.

I hope in February I am able to get more done and get out of the house more. I am hopeful that the year will improve from here. The start of a year always seems like a low point for me but it has had some good moments so far.